Dear Love,
Thanks..again.
For getting my hopes up..again.
For Making me believe in you..again.

For Allowing me to open up to you…again.
All for what?
To get hurt? Again and again?
I’m on the brink of being done with you.. again.
But this heart just won’t allow me to give up on you…again.
My body Will still long for you..again.
But Why? What did i do to you for you to hurt me..again?
Here i am questioning myself..again.
Wondering if I’m not woman enough…again.
Wondering if I’m even capable of being loved..again.
But all i have is visions of what could be.
Visions of what I’m destined to have.
Visions of what i believe i deserve
But i wonder do i truly deserve it..again?
So thanks love..again.
For fooling me once again.
For bringing the tears..again.
Asking God to hear my cry…again.
Thinking He must be tired of me about this..again.
So.. thanks love..again.
Sincerely,
~The Vision Blogger~
I allowed you to enter through my heart this time, thinking things just might be different this go ‘round.
We begin at a slow pace, close to the middle but not quite there yet. As you gaze lovingly into my eyes, telling me what I want to hear, you spin us slowly with your foot hanging off the side. Having full control now, you’re to your feet spinning me faster and faster, but instead of love in your eyes, there’s fear. Fear of allowing me to make it to that middle chamber which holds the very depth of you, your heart under lock and key. I look away as to not become distracted for the task at hand, to stand as we spin. Stand for you, stand for me, stand for us. Your heart, I hold the key but I’m getting sick to get to this lock. If I can just get there, the fear would cease, I pray. As I build up my strength to take step by step, you’re no longer focused on me. Your hands are in your pockets. You’re walking away until your body is now dark. I spin and spin as it starts to rain, light showers, light thunder, but I sit now just waiting for you to come back and ride with me. Now the ride has completely stopped and all sickness and dizziness relieved. I make my way to the chamber to find there’s no heart, no lock, no key. The very thing I struggled for, became sick for, fought like hell for, compromised myself and what I believe in for, is gone. Then, in the distance there’s a light. The light appears to be similar to my previous designation, another chamber, but it has no lock, the door is open, just open. I step off the ride with no hesitation, no thoughts besides just getting there. As I get closer, I see the chamber is on another ride and you’re there spinning another round, gazing lovingly into her eyes, telling her what she wants to hear with your foot hanging off the side.

